One year ago tomorrow, my dad received his angel wings. It's amazing how some days it feels like we have been without him much longer than just a year. And yet, I still find myself hoping he will walk through my front door, arms open, waiting to greet the kids. For the most part, I think I have learned a lot about myself and I have marveled at how strong my mom has become. I know Dad is watching her and smiling at what an amazing job she is doing. That is a given.
My sadness stems from watching my kids grow up without him. We planted a tree for Dad yesterday which will always be a reminder for us of Dad. Ellie and Reid talk a lot about my dad, which is something I always want to encourage. We definitely keep him alive in our hearts, that is for sure. I miss Dad's jokes, his laugh, his teasing, his love for his grandkids and family, his joy, his musical talents, and his gift of just making anyone feel welcome at anytime. I rejoice that he is in heaven free from pain, no doubt. But, wow....I do miss him. Dad....we love and miss you like crazy. I feel like I see a part of you many days whether it be a beautiful sunset on my way to work, or remembering a favorite joke of yours and laughing just remembering how you would tell it over and over again. Some things never get old. I rejoice knowing that I will see you again one day. Thank goodness I have that to hang on to. Dad.....love you always. Miss you tons.
Dad and Reid- Easter 2009
A favorite picture of mine....this is the day my dad became a grandpa for the first time! Here he is in his glory, holding Ellie. Sept. 2004
3 comments:
Oh Janeen, I am once again sorry for your loss. I can't imagine losing a parent and would be terribly sad at the thought of my kids growing up not knowing them. Love the tree planting idea - your kids will always know who he is and have beautiful pictures to remember him by.
Yep, the tears are flowing...you made me think of a lot of memories of my own....whether they make you laugh or cry, they are so precious.
Hugs!!
I'm so sorry for the loss of your Dad. I lost my Dad when I was 19 and it seems like the milestone moments of my life he missed. He missed walking me down the aisle, missed the birth of my kids. You are so blessed to have had him as long as you did.
Bless you.
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