Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Thoughts of an angel....

Tonight I sit with teary eyes.

One year ago tomorrow, my dad received his angel wings. It's amazing how some days it feels like we have been without him much longer than just a year. And yet, I still find myself hoping he will walk through my front door, arms open, waiting to greet the kids. For the most part, I think I have learned a lot about myself and I have marveled at how strong my mom has become. I know Dad is watching her and smiling at what an amazing job she is doing. That is a given.

My sadness stems from watching my kids grow up without him. We planted a tree for Dad yesterday which will always be a reminder for us of Dad. Ellie and Reid talk a lot about my dad, which is something I always want to encourage. We definitely keep him alive in our hearts, that is for sure. I miss Dad's jokes, his laugh, his teasing, his love for his grandkids and family, his joy, his musical talents, and his gift of just making anyone feel welcome at anytime. I rejoice that he is in heaven free from pain, no doubt. But, wow....I do miss him. Dad....we love and miss you like crazy. I feel like I see a part of you many days whether it be a beautiful sunset on my way to work, or remembering a favorite joke of yours and laughing just remembering how you would tell it over and over again. Some things never get old. I rejoice knowing that I will see you again one day. Thank goodness I have that to hang on to. you always. Miss you tons.

Dad and Reid- Easter 2009

A favorite picture of mine....this is the day my dad became a grandpa for the first time! Here he is in his glory, holding Ellie. Sept. 2004


Heather said...

Oh Janeen, I am once again sorry for your loss. I can't imagine losing a parent and would be terribly sad at the thought of my kids growing up not knowing them. Love the tree planting idea - your kids will always know who he is and have beautiful pictures to remember him by.

steph said...

Yep, the tears are made me think of a lot of memories of my own....whether they make you laugh or cry, they are so precious.

Julie said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Dad. I lost my Dad when I was 19 and it seems like the milestone moments of my life he missed. He missed walking me down the aisle, missed the birth of my kids. You are so blessed to have had him as long as you did.

Bless you.

Hello, and welcome to my page! I am so glad you are here. I am going to try and show you the average life of a 5 year old from my perspective. Mommy and Daddy will help me along the way if I get stuck.

Let me first introduce my family to you. I am Ellie. I am a 6 year old. I live in Ohio with my Mommy, Daddy, little brother Reid, and dog, Sophie. My mommy is a teacher. She teaches nine and ten year olds and loves it. She has been teaching for twelve years. My daddy works with computers. He works hard everyday.

We all love spending time together. I have wonderful grandparents and a terrific extended family. I am a very lucky girl. Thank you for visiting my page. Write to me any time. I love getting mail!!!

Many blessing to you all.

Little Ski (Ellie)

Mommy and me having cuddle time at Hocking Hills.

Told ya, my hair can be wild! And you thought I was kidding!

Hmmm, Blue's Brother's perhaps?