Saturday, September 26, 2009

Dad update


Without saying this in so many words.....I will be direct. There is no easy way. There are no words to make this ok. My dad is terminal. Period. There isn't anything more to do for him. We are devoting our time, love, attention, stories, laughs around his bedside and holding his hand at every opportunity we have. We are telling him how much we love him and showing him every second we can. No one knows how much time my dad has here with us....that is all in God's timing. I am not sad for dad. He is going to be one wonderful guardian angel for my kids. I know this. I just hate that my kids will not grow up knowing their grandpa. I am glad I have the pictures I do and the many stories to pass on to them. I am not mad at God. I do wonder why us, though. I am sure everyone in this position does.

I ask for prayers. Prayers that Dad will remain comfortable. Prayers that Mom will be at peace. Prayers that my brother and I can sort through all this in our minds and accept the truth. Prayers that I will be able to explain this all to Ellie. Prayers that things work out how they are supposed to. Prayers that I will stay strong for my mom. Prayers that my plan does not get in the way of God's. Prayers that I can cherish each moment I have with my dad. Prayers that God will cover our family with grace. Prayers that we are able to show my dad how incredibly lucky we are to be able to call him our dad. Prayers.....Prayers......and more Prayers...... I will keep you updated. We love you all.

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

We love you Janeen and you are all in our prayers! Kara and Mark

Joy Howse said...

Always praying. For strength, peace, and discernment. Andrew had just turned 3 when my dad passed away. it is amazing what kids know without us saying a word. He walked in the house right after Papa passed and said, 'Papa is with Jesus isn't he?' He knew without anyone saying a word. I do pray that you will have the right words for Ellie and for Reid when the time comes. Know that I am praying for you during this difficult time, and sadly understand what you are going through since my dad had terminal liver cancer. be gentle with yourself and cherish every last moment (which I know you are already doing).

Heather said...

I am so terribly sorry for you and your family right now. I know what it's like to not have grandparents... mine were either gone before I was even born, or died shortly thereafter. The bond of grandchild-grandparent is a precious one and I am sorry your kiddos will miss that. But pictures and stories are wonderful memories.

Allison said...

Prayers you will ALL have . . . All I can say is hugs, hugs, hugs and even more hugs . . .

Ron and Linda said...

Hello Janeen -
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted. [Ecclesiastes 3:1­2]

We love you all - sending hugs,

The Dawkins said...

Janeen-I am so sorry. I hope he can have peace and that yall can have goom moments together.

John, Shannon, Broderick, Camden, and Adalynn said...

I am at a loss for words. I can't imagine the pain you are going through right now....sending you lots of prayers for peace, comfort, and understanding.

Krissy said...

Thinking of you and praying for you...

Good Remedy said...

Lord, be close to give your comfort.
Have mercy on Janeen's father and family.

Kathy Schindewolf said...

We will continue to pray for your Dad and all of your family. I know your Dad would be proud of you for helping your Mom out at this most difficult time. It is so hard to see those that we love suffer so much. Take care and remember our prayers are with all of you.
We love you and send our hugs and prayers.
Kathy & Gene

Clan Goodrich said...

Prayers of comfort to you and your family, Janeen. I know that your faith and family will help you through this tough time.

Kelly Rogers said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. It is good that you y can spend time with your dad and just shower him with love and affection at this time. My heart hurts for you because I too, feel so terribly sad that Gavin won't know his grandma. When my mom passed, I felt that Gavin will definitely miss out on an amazing grandma and that made me sad. But what we can do is keep the memories of our loved ones alive by showing our kids pictures and telling stories of the wonderful grandparents who loved them so much. Please take care of yourself.

Hello, and welcome to my page! I am so glad you are here. I am going to try and show you the average life of a 5 year old from my perspective. Mommy and Daddy will help me along the way if I get stuck.

Let me first introduce my family to you. I am Ellie. I am a 6 year old. I live in Ohio with my Mommy, Daddy, little brother Reid, and dog, Sophie. My mommy is a teacher. She teaches nine and ten year olds and loves it. She has been teaching for twelve years. My daddy works with computers. He works hard everyday.

We all love spending time together. I have wonderful grandparents and a terrific extended family. I am a very lucky girl. Thank you for visiting my page. Write to me any time. I love getting mail!!!

Many blessing to you all.

Love,
Little Ski (Ellie)

Mommy and me having cuddle time at Hocking Hills.

Told ya, my hair can be wild! And you thought I was kidding!

Hmmm, Blue's Brother's perhaps?